Dear Diary ..
I'm chammie and this is the first post i write in 2013
I can't sleep in this time even it's really late ..
what i am thinking about? - - - hmm about my mind (love)
i miss someone so bad - - - i always think about him ♥
i just don't know why he makes me feel like this >.<
i try to don't think about relationship since i have had some
and it's ended by my partner (ex) :((((
first loved, i found something strange with him .. but i tried to act fine
then i helped him found sth in his school bag and what i saw was sth like a pin
it stick with the pencil bag .. there was some girl's name and his name with a
heart ... i was shocked T.T and found he changed
yes .. he cheated .. even when he was cheating he said love to me and we were normal couple.
it's ended for long ago when i was 16 years old .. and i almost die because of broken hearted
after that when i was in uni
i had a ridiculous relationship with someone in internet..
he was handsome and did manything for me ..
so i thought he really loved me ...
when i fell so in loved with him .. i found that he had some girls post sth (sweet ways)
so i tried to knew her and she told me she was his gf .....??????
i was so shocked but in the last he choose me .. after that for 2 months
he cheated and told me to tell his new girl that i was just his ex --- yeah
i became his ex-gf when he told me that and i didnt know before
i was sad but i hated him so i moved on so fast and then ?
he came back to me .. and told me that no one loved him by true heart
and he cried a lot for me ... but i was not believe anymore for some cheater..
but im happy he realize it ... and then i blocked him from every way because
i hate cheater and people who always give me an excuse ~ never accept the truth and
never accept their own fault . . .
the lastest love --- ''it's really the last''
im now accepting he doesnt have time for me ~ to love me --- because of being so busy
in his university but if one day i find that he is loving with someone?????????????
what should i do and think?
i know when we wanna stop relationship with someone
we always try to be a good one who really has reason to do that . .
we should be responsibility to clear with it . .
i dont know .. he is changed a lot ~ act like i've never been exist in his life
and blaming me that i dont trust in him . .
we were in a rel. for 3 years --- he should knew me who i am
yes im not perfect and i think too much with every single thing ...
i love to see everything clear
i still love him so much and it will be like this
i am who i am that he ever known but if he complains because i am bad so why he loved me ?
because i am like this since we were together ..
Why i can't stop loving him ?
i cant say in words ... because its from my TRUE HEART ♥
i don't really mean he is handsome and i dont wanna lose him
(because i have met many guys who is looking better than him flirted me )
it's about who he is and his LOVE :(((
Love for me is beyond everything .. really ...
but he judge me i want to talk to him only ~ and its not like that :(( he doesnt believe in the love i have for him :((( how come ? why he doesnt believe ? so what kind of love he has got with me :((((
i always give him love by my feeling every single second
i have been doing it since we first loved until now
but now he wants ''love'' from someone else (my friend sent some pic he post that i couldnt see) T_T
it's a love experience i have got
with different kind of people but the same ending they leave me :(((
you know, when i go somewhere by car or whatever
i really want it has accident and i just die ...
i just dont wanna be without the last one i loved
and my life is really nothing ... even i have so many thing around
i do love him and its crazy but its the truth from me ...
i never told about sth bad from him that i dislike
because i love and accept him, who he is
but he blame me how bad i am and so he leave me because of that :((
(my friend told me its happen when someone have no love or no interesting anymore)
i just wanna see his heart what it made from :(((
..........................
sigh T_T
pls take my breathe away .. because i dont wanna breathe anymore
i died since he left me and stop loving me
pls .. pls take my body and bury me
let me sleep forever and i will see you in my dream
im glad to to able to love someone like this .. in this life
and i wont be able to love anyone like this ...
i can't wait to die
.... really
from the bottom of my broken heart
''chammie''
I'm chammie and this is the first post i write in 2013
I can't sleep in this time even it's really late ..
what i am thinking about? - - - hmm about my mind (love)
i miss someone so bad - - - i always think about him ♥
i just don't know why he makes me feel like this >.<
i try to don't think about relationship since i have had some
and it's ended by my partner (ex) :((((
first loved, i found something strange with him .. but i tried to act fine
then i helped him found sth in his school bag and what i saw was sth like a pin
it stick with the pencil bag .. there was some girl's name and his name with a
heart ... i was shocked T.T and found he changed
yes .. he cheated .. even when he was cheating he said love to me and we were normal couple.
it's ended for long ago when i was 16 years old .. and i almost die because of broken hearted
after that when i was in uni
i had a ridiculous relationship with someone in internet..
he was handsome and did manything for me ..
so i thought he really loved me ...
when i fell so in loved with him .. i found that he had some girls post sth (sweet ways)
so i tried to knew her and she told me she was his gf .....??????
i was so shocked but in the last he choose me .. after that for 2 months
he cheated and told me to tell his new girl that i was just his ex --- yeah
i became his ex-gf when he told me that and i didnt know before
i was sad but i hated him so i moved on so fast and then ?
he came back to me .. and told me that no one loved him by true heart
and he cried a lot for me ... but i was not believe anymore for some cheater..
but im happy he realize it ... and then i blocked him from every way because
i hate cheater and people who always give me an excuse ~ never accept the truth and
never accept their own fault . . .
the lastest love --- ''it's really the last''
im now accepting he doesnt have time for me ~ to love me --- because of being so busy
in his university but if one day i find that he is loving with someone?????????????
what should i do and think?
i know when we wanna stop relationship with someone
we always try to be a good one who really has reason to do that . .
we should be responsibility to clear with it . .
i dont know .. he is changed a lot ~ act like i've never been exist in his life
and blaming me that i dont trust in him . .
we were in a rel. for 3 years --- he should knew me who i am
yes im not perfect and i think too much with every single thing ...
i love to see everything clear
i still love him so much and it will be like this
i am who i am that he ever known but if he complains because i am bad so why he loved me ?
because i am like this since we were together ..
Why i can't stop loving him ?
i cant say in words ... because its from my TRUE HEART ♥
i don't really mean he is handsome and i dont wanna lose him
(because i have met many guys who is looking better than him flirted me )
it's about who he is and his LOVE :(((
Love for me is beyond everything .. really ...
but he judge me i want to talk to him only ~ and its not like that :(( he doesnt believe in the love i have for him :((( how come ? why he doesnt believe ? so what kind of love he has got with me :((((
i always give him love by my feeling every single second
i have been doing it since we first loved until now
but now he wants ''love'' from someone else (my friend sent some pic he post that i couldnt see) T_T
it's a love experience i have got
with different kind of people but the same ending they leave me :(((
you know, when i go somewhere by car or whatever
i really want it has accident and i just die ...
i just dont wanna be without the last one i loved
and my life is really nothing ... even i have so many thing around
i do love him and its crazy but its the truth from me ...
i never told about sth bad from him that i dislike
because i love and accept him, who he is
but he blame me how bad i am and so he leave me because of that :((
(my friend told me its happen when someone have no love or no interesting anymore)
i just wanna see his heart what it made from :(((
..........................
sigh T_T
pls take my breathe away .. because i dont wanna breathe anymore
i died since he left me and stop loving me
pls .. pls take my body and bury me
let me sleep forever and i will see you in my dream
im glad to to able to love someone like this .. in this life
and i wont be able to love anyone like this ...
i can't wait to die
.... really
from the bottom of my broken heart
''chammie''
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